And I think I was sort of mentally prepared, after watching the sad movie Her. At least I don't have any emotional relationship with my phone. I think.
I guess, this is our generation's newest addiction, being in "contact" but not really being present in the moment. Not missing on updates, but missing in on what's actually happening. Not missing and missing, being present and absent at the same time - it's possible. And come to think of it, I think I won't like it when my daughter, who will soon be oriented with all these fast-paced gadgets and the new-breed technology will be bringing her tablet along while we're in the middle of family dinner. The scenario: "How's your day anak? She answers - with nothing. Eyes glued to the screen, she lets out a giggle. I'm not the source of her laughs now. The bird in the tablet is. Hmmm....so this is what my 21st century nightmare will look like.
As a person who has quit a really crazy smoking addiction in 2009 (Did I say 17 years of cigarette smoking?), I know how it is to be dependent on something. That even if I tried to quit so many times, I also failed so many times. Quitting an addiction is not just a light you turn off whenever you want to. It's lingering and it's a series of hard steps that took me years to overcome. And realizing how much time I go into cyberland, I found out that status checking on Facebook, Instagram, Gmail, Yahoo News! and all the wonderful article links, are my new cigarettes.
But how can we really say that this new way, this lifestyle which is entwined with technology is entirely wrong? Can I manage to give Isabelle a technology-free childhood when all of the kids play with tablets? Or should I even stop her from being part of technology's timeline?
How about the bad press that revolves around kids that use smart phones and tablets, didn't they say the same thing with the TV in the old days? Who am I to say that this is all wrong? And who am I to judge? Who am I to be righteous? The studies and statistics are too premature and cannot hold much as a refutation to the arguments inside my head.
I remember someone who once asked me to talk to her sister and tell her to quit smoking. I seem to be, at that time, the best resource speaker to give a one-on-one since I've had overcome my nasty habit. But I told her that I think no one can really intervene an addiction. That no outside force with a truck full of lectures can make anyone quit. Quitting is a decision. An addict will quit when he's ready.
Maybe I should start making boundaries with my status checking. How about starting with not holding a phone when the family's around. Or how about not sleeping with my phone and checking updates at 3AM. All of these sounds pretty familiar.